“ACCEPTANCE DOESN'T MEAN RESIGNATION; IT MEANS UNDERSTANDING THAT SOMETHING IS WHAT IT IS AND THAT THERE'S GOT TO BE A WAY THROUGH IT.” MICHAEL J. FOX
This quote spoke to me. One of my best days was finding out, after two years, what was wrong with me. I didn't experience the denial stage, or at least not right away and not as a full stage. I had convinced myself I had cancer, a brain tumor, something incurable and that I was going to die right away, without really experiencing life. When I got the diagnosis of MS, it was a relief. I knew MS came with its own bought of problems and troubles, but it was what it was, and it wasn't cancer. I still had a change at a long life. I accepted that, and knew that I would be able to deal with it, be able to get through the tough parts, be able to live a happy life because I had it, it did not have me.
Sure, I've had moments of panic, of fear, of worry about the future. I've had days where I feel defeated. I'm always able to pick myself back up though because I know there has to be a way through those tough times.
I remember celebrating my 6 month anniversary, because I had had so many relapses the year before (7 in 12 months), then my 1 year anniversary. Between year 1 and 2 I had periods of anxiety, two years was such a long time, I was due wasn't I? At year 3 I felt triumphant. I had made it to 3 years without a major relapse. My 4th anniversary, I thankfully forgot. I forgot to remember I was healthy. I forgot that being healthy was abnormal. I forgot to remember how sick I have been. I forgot to put an emphasis on the disease that I have... but I remembered to live life.
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